Life Through My Lens

Raise a Hallelujah goodness of God, ain't no grave, victory is Yours!   I'm at a point in my life where I don't know who my friends are. And I don't mean I don't have great friends. The close friends I had in different seasons of life are living their own life and sometimes I don't see or talk to them for months or so. God said we are to guard our hearts at ALL times. And I mean in all relationships. The thing that God taught me is if your going from relationship to relationship your never actually healing. Your bringing the same hurt with you to the next person. Or never actually spending some time apart from a friend and do something by yourself. What I'm saying is what is not from God is doomed to fail, and we need to more self aware of our time, and working with God to restore those broken places of our hearts.  2019 is the end of a decade, and that also means letting go of the past and moving forward. I've had a few deaths in my family, my grand...

Faith is the bridge that will carry you from where you are to where God has called you to be. Remember, you are to walk by faith, not by sight. 2018 has been a difficult year. I think most of us can say that. It’s been seasons of hard work in our lives, disappointments and setbacks. I came into the year with so much hope and that God was going to do big things.  The reality is that God often surprises us. We expect something big and extravagant with our obedience, but really God wants us to be obedient. Not because of what happens at the  end, but because of what happens during it.  At the beginning of the year, God gave me the word grace upon grace. Later on, He gave me the words my thirty years of waiting and discernment. It's unusual to get more then one word, but it makes sense. The biggest one He's been teaching me is discernment. God was working on breaking patterns in my life last year, and it all came together in what discernment really means. The reality is t...

I trust the next chapter because I know the author.  I firmly believe that everything God is preparing you for is worth the wait. The time He has given me will not go to waste. The waiting, the wondering, and will He come through. I look back on this year and wonder what all has happened. God has been teaching me obedience, discernment, leaning not on my own understanding and fully trusting Him. He has been pruning me and healing me to become the woman God created me to be. I sometimes think I complain a lot, but I'm just trying to be honest with where I'm at. I don't have to like being single, but I can be content with where I am at.  It might be weird for me to say this, but I look back in my twenties and I'm so glad I didn't get married. I didn't know who I was, what I wanted or where I was going. All the set backs, disappointments and rejections actually were a big blessing. Even though at the time it was painful and hard to understand. The past two year...

"The man God has for you is praying for you but he is also focused on godly purpose, growing as a man, preparing to lead your household and raise your children in true godliness. He is busy, yet fruit abounds on his life. He's not chasing money or women, he's chasing God. In God's timing, he will find you. Rest and trust. High caliber, high quality men are out here in abundance. Your just in the safe right now, on reserve for the one who will take care of your heart and love you as Christ loves the church. Rest Queen." -Sarita Foxworth  Don't rush the process because you're lonely. I don't want to sound like a broken record about this, but I need to be honest about this. It's that wonderful time of the year, its the Christmas season and it's filled with joy, thankfulness and cheer. Honestly, I really struggle with singleness during the holidays. You see everyone out doing fun and cute things together, countless engagements and pictures. You s...

I’ll praise before my breakthrough, till my song becomes my triumph, I will sing because I trust You. 2018 has been a difficult year. I think most of us can say that. It’s been seasons of hard work in our lives, disappointments and setbacks. I came into the year with so much hope and that God was going to do big things. I turned thirty, I had hope that God was going to bless me with some of the big things in life. He has been seriously teaching me a lot though. A lot about discernment, and asking God first. The problem is that you always get the answer, but majority of the time it's not what we want to hear. It' also having patience with it, and give it some time to pan out. Because God is always right.  The reality is that God often surprises us. We expect something big and extravagant with our obedience, but really God wants us to be obedient. Not because of what happens at the  end, but because of what happens during it. He has been showing me it's okay to be disapp...

To be at your most authentic self is to be in the presence of God.  Let's talk about community. Community is supposed to be a safe place you can join with other believers, share experiences, be accountable for one another and worship the Lord together. You connect in a very deep level with others because of the shared spiritual being. Community is talked about all the time in the church. You need to join a small group, a young adult group, a new church, volunteer somewhere. There's a lot of really great things about community.  But here's the thing .. it's not always so great. Being in community is not about yourself. It's about the people you are surrounded by. It can quickly become like a high school where it becomes about clicks, not including others, feeling left out and gossip. God wants authentic people. Not avoiding each other and not feeling included. You should be able to walk into a room and feel welcomed. Y'a'll, its about who you hang out wit...

Isn't it just like God, to turn our disappointments into a dance floor.  God often uses our times of waiting and obedience to truly rely on Him. To be honest, life has been really hard. I reached a breaking point that I just cried and cried, I hadn't cried in months. I've kept all my frustrations and hurts to myself for far too long. God doesn't want us to do that. He wants us to talk through our emotions and have people that can speak into our situations. My job situation was literally making me sick, and it was hurting everything around me. I needed a better way to lean into God for plans for my future. God has also had me in a season of preparation. He's been working through some hard truths, healing me and bringing me to a healthy place emotionally, spiritually and personally. Your bamboo seasons are your seasons of acceleration, because of the work He's been doing under is going to have unusual acceleration.   God has given me words for this year. Such ...