Life Through My Lens

Be still and know that I am God. If we quiet our minds and listen, He is always speaking. It was such a rad weekend with an amazing group of people. The group was well connected, I loved the girls I roomed with in the sugar shack, and even though we had a few delays with warmer tempts and the wind knocking the power out, it still lead to a good time on the slopes. I honestly really prayed for this trip. Since I was really sick last year, and some girl drama, I really wanted this trip to be unique and well processed. God out did it. I know being an introvert is hard in larger groups, it can be harder to be yourself, but I still enjoyed being around everyone and being involved.   I didn't get to go into town this time, but we did end up going to a Maple syrup farm and learned how they make it in Vermont, as well as cheese. It was really cold, but interesting. Then spent some time hanging out at the lodge. I was a bit disappointed in myself for not going on more runs. I know ...

Turning the tides. 2019 has been a rough start. I had two family members who passed away, my job is overwhelming, and I don't know where this year is going to lead. But I do have hope this will be a good year. God is moving, and He will bring breakthroughs and transitions into life. I'm praying that God will direct my steps to where to go next, and what I really need to do. It is time for change. It is time for things to happen in my life. I have been waiting for a long time, and I know I really want a boyfriend, and a better job, and a new car and so on. I know God can do it. God has already shown me so much already. There will always be conflict with people, but it's learning to lean on Him, and trust the process.

Raise a Hallelujah goodness of God, ain't no grave, victory is Yours!   I'm at a point in my life where I don't know who my friends are. And I don't mean I don't have great friends. The close friends I had in different seasons of life are living their own life and sometimes I don't see or talk to them for months or so. God said we are to guard our hearts at ALL times. And I mean in all relationships. The thing that God taught me is if your going from relationship to relationship your never actually healing. Your bringing the same hurt with you to the next person. Or never actually spending some time apart from a friend and do something by yourself. What I'm saying is what is not from God is doomed to fail, and we need to more self aware of our time, and working with God to restore those broken places of our hearts.  2019 is the end of a decade, and that also means letting go of the past and moving forward. I've had a few deaths in my family, my grand...

Faith is the bridge that will carry you from where you are to where God has called you to be. Remember, you are to walk by faith, not by sight. 2018 has been a difficult year. I think most of us can say that. It’s been seasons of hard work in our lives, disappointments and setbacks. I came into the year with so much hope and that God was going to do big things.  The reality is that God often surprises us. We expect something big and extravagant with our obedience, but really God wants us to be obedient. Not because of what happens at the  end, but because of what happens during it.  At the beginning of the year, God gave me the word grace upon grace. Later on, He gave me the words my thirty years of waiting and discernment. It's unusual to get more then one word, but it makes sense. The biggest one He's been teaching me is discernment. God was working on breaking patterns in my life last year, and it all came together in what discernment really means. The reality is t...

I trust the next chapter because I know the author.  I firmly believe that everything God is preparing you for is worth the wait. The time He has given me will not go to waste. The waiting, the wondering, and will He come through. I look back on this year and wonder what all has happened. God has been teaching me obedience, discernment, leaning not on my own understanding and fully trusting Him. He has been pruning me and healing me to become the woman God created me to be. I sometimes think I complain a lot, but I'm just trying to be honest with where I'm at. I don't have to like being single, but I can be content with where I am at.  It might be weird for me to say this, but I look back in my twenties and I'm so glad I didn't get married. I didn't know who I was, what I wanted or where I was going. All the set backs, disappointments and rejections actually were a big blessing. Even though at the time it was painful and hard to understand. The past two year...

"The man God has for you is praying for you but he is also focused on godly purpose, growing as a man, preparing to lead your household and raise your children in true godliness. He is busy, yet fruit abounds on his life. He's not chasing money or women, he's chasing God. In God's timing, he will find you. Rest and trust. High caliber, high quality men are out here in abundance. Your just in the safe right now, on reserve for the one who will take care of your heart and love you as Christ loves the church. Rest Queen." -Sarita Foxworth  Don't rush the process because you're lonely. I don't want to sound like a broken record about this, but I need to be honest about this. It's that wonderful time of the year, its the Christmas season and it's filled with joy, thankfulness and cheer. Honestly, I really struggle with singleness during the holidays. You see everyone out doing fun and cute things together, countless engagements and pictures. You s...

I’ll praise before my breakthrough, till my song becomes my triumph, I will sing because I trust You. 2018 has been a difficult year. I think most of us can say that. It’s been seasons of hard work in our lives, disappointments and setbacks. I came into the year with so much hope and that God was going to do big things. I turned thirty, I had hope that God was going to bless me with some of the big things in life. He has been seriously teaching me a lot though. A lot about discernment, and asking God first. The problem is that you always get the answer, but majority of the time it's not what we want to hear. It' also having patience with it, and give it some time to pan out. Because God is always right.  The reality is that God often surprises us. We expect something big and extravagant with our obedience, but really God wants us to be obedient. Not because of what happens at the  end, but because of what happens during it. He has been showing me it's okay to be disapp...