Life Through My Lens

Faith is the bridge that will carry you from where you are to where God has called you to be. Remember, you are to walk by faith, not by sight. 2018 has been a difficult year. I think most of us can say that. It’s been seasons of hard work in our lives, disappointments and setbacks. I came into the year with so much hope and that God was going to do big things.  The reality is that God often surprises us. We expect something big and extravagant with our obedience, but really God wants us to be obedient. Not because of what happens at the  end, but because of what happens during it.  At the beginning of the year, God gave me the word grace upon grace. Later on, He gave me the words my thirty years of waiting and discernment. It's unusual to get more then one word, but it makes sense. The biggest one He's been teaching me is discernment. God was working on breaking patterns in my life last year, and it all came together in what discernment really means. The reality is t...

I trust the next chapter because I know the author.  I firmly believe that everything God is preparing you for is worth the wait. The time He has given me will not go to waste. The waiting, the wondering, and will He come through. I look back on this year and wonder what all has happened. God has been teaching me obedience, discernment, leaning not on my own understanding and fully trusting Him. He has been pruning me and healing me to become the woman God created me to be. I sometimes think I complain a lot, but I'm just trying to be honest with where I'm at. I don't have to like being single, but I can be content with where I am at.  It might be weird for me to say this, but I look back in my twenties and I'm so glad I didn't get married. I didn't know who I was, what I wanted or where I was going. All the set backs, disappointments and rejections actually were a big blessing. Even though at the time it was painful and hard to understand. The past two year...

"The man God has for you is praying for you but he is also focused on godly purpose, growing as a man, preparing to lead your household and raise your children in true godliness. He is busy, yet fruit abounds on his life. He's not chasing money or women, he's chasing God. In God's timing, he will find you. Rest and trust. High caliber, high quality men are out here in abundance. Your just in the safe right now, on reserve for the one who will take care of your heart and love you as Christ loves the church. Rest Queen." -Sarita Foxworth  Don't rush the process because you're lonely. I don't want to sound like a broken record about this, but I need to be honest about this. It's that wonderful time of the year, its the Christmas season and it's filled with joy, thankfulness and cheer. Honestly, I really struggle with singleness during the holidays. You see everyone out doing fun and cute things together, countless engagements and pictures. You s...

I’ll praise before my breakthrough, till my song becomes my triumph, I will sing because I trust You. 2018 has been a difficult year. I think most of us can say that. It’s been seasons of hard work in our lives, disappointments and setbacks. I came into the year with so much hope and that God was going to do big things. I turned thirty, I had hope that God was going to bless me with some of the big things in life. He has been seriously teaching me a lot though. A lot about discernment, and asking God first. The problem is that you always get the answer, but majority of the time it's not what we want to hear. It' also having patience with it, and give it some time to pan out. Because God is always right.  The reality is that God often surprises us. We expect something big and extravagant with our obedience, but really God wants us to be obedient. Not because of what happens at the  end, but because of what happens during it. He has been showing me it's okay to be disapp...

To be at your most authentic self is to be in the presence of God.  Let's talk about community. Community is supposed to be a safe place you can join with other believers, share experiences, be accountable for one another and worship the Lord together. You connect in a very deep level with others because of the shared spiritual being. Community is talked about all the time in the church. You need to join a small group, a young adult group, a new church, volunteer somewhere. There's a lot of really great things about community.  But here's the thing .. it's not always so great. Being in community is not about yourself. It's about the people you are surrounded by. It can quickly become like a high school where it becomes about clicks, not including others, feeling left out and gossip. God wants authentic people. Not avoiding each other and not feeling included. You should be able to walk into a room and feel welcomed. Y'a'll, its about who you hang out wit...

Isn't it just like God, to turn our disappointments into a dance floor.  God often uses our times of waiting and obedience to truly rely on Him. To be honest, life has been really hard. I reached a breaking point that I just cried and cried, I hadn't cried in months. I've kept all my frustrations and hurts to myself for far too long. God doesn't want us to do that. He wants us to talk through our emotions and have people that can speak into our situations. My job situation was literally making me sick, and it was hurting everything around me. I needed a better way to lean into God for plans for my future. God has also had me in a season of preparation. He's been working through some hard truths, healing me and bringing me to a healthy place emotionally, spiritually and personally. Your bamboo seasons are your seasons of acceleration, because of the work He's been doing under is going to have unusual acceleration.   God has given me words for this year. Such ...

The other day I got to attend the wedding of a dear friend of mine. The wedding was beautiful, filled with the Holy Spirit and blessed with love ones all around. I have known Leah for years now and I can say her obedience to the Lord has lead her to amazing places, and led her to her now husband. It has come with it's fair share of trials and tests, but God is faithful. I'm so happy for her and the new adventures she has ahead of her.  Being at her wedding brought back a lot of emotions. I know I want to get married too, but it made me miss the days when I was traveling, and the community missions brings. There is something so special about being somewhere abroad and the experiences you have with those around you. You can't even explain it sometimes. I have been home for a little over four years now and it's been a long haul of working through issues and having to work in general. What I am feeling now is ready to actually move forward. But I am not who or where I was...