Life Through My Lens

There are blessings in the waiting.  God has been speaking truth over me that there are blessings in the waiting. It's comes down to trusting God in His promises. When I get anxiety during the week because of work or relationships I have to remind myself to not worry. God's got this. He's in control of my future, my future relationship and that He will make it happen at the right time. I know I feel more confident in myself, but sometimes it's just hard. Because it's something that I really want- a Godly relationship. I mean, I stopped wanting it in the same way I have in the past, but it is still hard. When is now. When will a guy just know, ask God and pursue. It seems like it shouldn't be that hard. But it's persistence. Asking God about it. I can honestly say, I have not really asked God about a future husband. I don't know if it's because I don't want it to come from a place of desperation, past hurts or rejections but really asking God ...

Overwhelming peace. God has given me an overwhelming peace. I know that in the beginning of the year God gave me the word grace. A spirit of rest, grace upon grace of all the hard times and just for myself. What it means to truly rest in Him. I'm burned out all the time from my job and just the craziness of life, but also learning to truly rest in Him. How to have a life when you have other obligations. It's been a real challenge for me. Pressure makes diamonds right.  Learning to rest in Him also mean learning to rest in His promises. We become so fixated on our desires and what we want that we miss the growth in the process. So when does it become something from God and not out of desperation.. we ask Him. We check our hearts and motives. It doesn't mean your not intentional about it, but it's realizing that God knows the desires of our hearts and prayers, and the focus needs to be more on ourselves and not those desires. Like the prayers you've been asking Go...

What does it look like to just be .. to just be in His presence again. We grow soo used to being busy all the time we don't actually take the time for Him. God is a jealous God, and He wants all of our attention. He wants to get our attention back on Him. The enemy will do anything to distract us. And we need to be praying for discernment in the process.  Something was brought up to me the other night after church, what is the next? I was explaining how I went to college, did YWAM and now working full time, and I feel like my time following God is up. I'm in a different season of life now. And it sometimes involves giving up a lot in the process. But I'm not feeling fulfilled in what I am doing. I feel drained and tired all the time. I feel like I'm waiting for that next big thing to happen .. but what does that look like. God has grown me and changed me so much over the past few years that all that I have learned can be used in such significant ways. I'm an amazi...

There is rawness in the beauty.  Pressure makes diamonds. Everybody wants to be a diamond, but very few are willing to take the pressure and get cut. Water cuts through and erodes rock not by force, but with what it contains at a molecular level and with it's fierce persistence. Because nothing grows out of comfort zones. You have to be persistent in growing and stepping out in faith.   I can say, in a more recent sense, I have been a diamond under pressure surfacing over a lot of hard work and healing in my life. God is making me a diamond. A diamond that reflects Jesus and the victories in my life. It's not just diamonds, but when God is faithful, our lives will be fruitful. Each season of our lives He is constantly surfacing and molding us to be more like Him.  Remember that God meets you where you are at. Not where you have been, not where you are going, but right where you are. He takes all of our experiences and uses them to better ourselves. We are not produc...

I was driving in the car with my mom the other day and we started talking about all of our times in Delray Beach, FL and missing Atlantic Ave. and the inner coastal and watching the boats go by. It hit me that all those times are only memories now. We can't go back to what was once a reality. All the family dinners we used to have and the boat rides. Everything you do will become a memory. So why is it so hard to realize to live in the moment, but yet we always look ahead or behind.  Four years ago I would be graduating from DTS and leaving to come back to reality. So how did time go so fast. I always miss YWAM during the winter months. You don't always realize the memories you are creating and the memories you make with people. It always goes way too fast. We are all in different phases of life now, and life has never been the same since then. But I miss that season of life. When all I had to worry about was to live for Jesus for six months. And then all of that changed. Tim...

Because God is faithful, our lives will be fruitful. There are blessings in the waiting. We live in a culture where we want everything now. We want and want, but don't put in the effort for things to grow. Everything takes time. I'm not saying that if it's right, then go for it. Sometimes you just have to take a chance or that chance won't come again. But God's timing is perfect. He is never late or too early. We jump into relationships to soon and then end in devastating consequences. A relationship is one of the most important decisions of our lives, and we need to not be reckless with our hearts and of others.  In the Bible, everything took time. Jesus was thirty-three when He came to his ministry. There are other stories where it took until later in life to receive that blessing. But it's what we do in the waiting that matters. God can use that time for other things. I shouldn't feel left behind because I'm not married with two kids or have a dre...

One of the most powerful gifts God can give to you is your testimony. Believe it or not, I didn't grow up in the church. I went to various churches growing up, but it was only for Easter services and events. But I knew nothing about it other then religion. My parents were hurt from the church and chose to raise us without it. My parents divorced when I was young, and both remarried. I didn't come to know the Lord until I was 19. I was a freshmen at Penn State who was new and learning my way around and wanting to meet new people. My RA and few of the guys started this bible study in my hall. I still remember this to this day, but one night we all went out for a quick dinner and someone asked me what it is I believe in .. and I didn't know. So I started to go to the bible studies and something just clicked in me. I wanted to know more. I have never heard it like this before and especially from people my own age. But God knew something else was in store for me.  I rememb...